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// Tuesday, March 10, 2009 // 10:57 p.m.

// Sunday, February 3, 2008 // 01:22 a.m.


We get it. You're shy. But your heart seems like it's practically bursting with romantic feelings, and we think you owe it to yourself to let them out. We'd like to officially dare you to tell someone how you feel this Valentine's Day. If saying it in person or over the phone feels too scary, how about confessing your love in one of those little kid Valentines? Sentiments like "I choo-choo-choose you" are hard to resist.



You know exactly what you want when you're kissing someone (you've carefully considered the merits of everything from hair touching to butt grabbing), but sometimes your shy side holds you back. You tend to stay silent about your preferences during real-life kisses, but once you get up the nerve to speak your mind, you'll experience the hot kissing action of your dreams.

// Tuesday, December 11, 2007 // 03:31 a.m.

// Sunday, October 28, 2007 // 04:37 p.m.
You're still human, but nobody can tell, because you're moaning hungrily and stumbling around with the zombie masses. You aren't in the mood to get involved in an exhausting zombie battle. You just want to live and let live (or let not-live, for the zombies). It seems like the easiest solution is to join the undead mob for now. It'll work out alright, as long as they don't pick up your delicious human scent. Fake zombie life isn't perfect – it's like being at a lame party where nobody talks much, and the snacks are really gross. But still… it beats hanging out at home until this zombie war is over, right?

// Tuesday, October 23, 2007 // 10:24 a.m.
You're sweet and kind, but never dull. Your flavorful personality and snappy style make a memorable first impression. Some people don't appreciate your spicy sense of humor, but your friends can't get enough of those witty wisecracks. You're smart, fresh, and totally tasty. Everyone wants a bite of you. 19% of the people who took this quiz got the same evaluation.

Who's Your New Degrassi Friend? // Sunday, October 14, 2007 // 11:54 p.m.
Mia's high school years were drama-filled even before she transferred to Degrassi, and things got even tougher after the move. She's talented, friendly, and she's been around longer than most of the new students, but sometimes she still has trouble fitting in. Despite everything she's been through, Mia seems like the kind of person who'll always stand up for herself (and you) when life gets complicated. She's best friend material… especially if you like kids. 35% of the people who took this quiz got the same evaluation.

more quiz // Wednesday, October 3, 2007 // 05:11 p.m.
You're pretty practical, but there's another side of you (a side you usually keep hidden) that's tempted to believe in magical things. Reality is okay, but you love the idea that there's more to life than what you see on the surface. Maybe there is a hidden forest somewhere packed with wood nymphs and unicorns, but unless you stumble across it on a camping trip, you won't be 100% convinced.

// Sunday, September 30, 2007 // 09:18 p.m.
It might sound like a compliment, but really, it's not. Sometimes, you're so sweet and thoughtful that it comes across as fake. You don't pay much attention to your own wants and needs, but you always consider how everyone else feels before you make a decision. It's not just people, though – you're considerate of pretty much everything you see. If there's only one cookie left in the box, you'll eat it so it won't get lonely (whether you're hungry or not). We hate when you do that. We WANTED that cookie!! 13% of the people who took this quiz got the same evaluation.

I'm anti-social // Saturday, September 8, 2007 // 02:04 p.m.
I think I'm anti-social... but not really. I mean, I think the choices I make lead people to believe that I am. Or maybe those said choices really do make me anti-social. The thing is I'm perfectly content spending time alone. If that sounds sad to you, stop thinking that. Because I'm not sad, so you shouldn't be either. People in general are very social beings, but for some reason I feel that I don't need that sociality (new word?) like everyone else does. I'm not saying I don't need anyone in this world and that I'm emo and am going to slit my wrists. It's just... different for me, I feel. On the other hand, I want to be closer to people, but I won't get that opportunity if I don't go out and be social. It's a very complex thing. I think I'm just so satisfied with routine that I'm scared of being placed in a situation that feels foreign to me. I'm scared of the uncomfortableness (another new word?) of new environments and relationships. I shouldn't be. I don't want to be. From now on, I'm going to accept invitations. With all the drinking I may be doing to loosen me up, in the end I might turn into an alcoholic. I guess that's the price I have to pay! hah!

// Friday, September 7, 2007 // 09:45 a.m.

today is wednesday // Wednesday, August 29, 2007 // 09:58 p.m.
today i told this girl she had a really cool shirt as i was walking past her on inner rd. i wonder if she knew i designed it. i mightve recognized her too if it werent for those oversized shades on her face, but now it will forever remain a mystery. shes lucky. i wouldve facebooked her by now. at least she said "thanks." ... i occasionally have dreams in which i invent words. last night i had one of those dreams. someone-i think it was my sister-said she wanted to play this game where you had to say a word louder than the person next to you. if that doesnt make sense to you, its basically like the "penis" game. except she didnt use the word "penis." before she could say anything, i started whispering "loilism," as if it meant the act of saying a word louder than your neighbor and thus the word i used as the name of the game. "loilism... Loilism... LOILISM!... LOILISM!!!" ...if i knew how to make a friggin logo for a traveling blues band i wouldnt be writing this right now.

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The Best Years // Sunday, July 29, 2007 // 11:37 p.m.

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maybe if i knew how to swim... // Thursday, March 22, 2007 // 09:18 p.m.

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im sorry, self. // Monday, November 20, 2006 // 01:00 a.m.
i dont know what im doing. this isnt a cry for help. this isnt a proclamation of anything profound. im stuck in a rut. an uncomfortable, unbearable, irritating rut. i think im from another planet. i dont fit in anywhere here. people treat me differently and im not like other people. im bizarre and not in a quirky, charming way either. so its settled. im an alien. im glad i got that out of the way. i hope im not starting early with losing my mind. i know any artist that wants to be successful has to lose it at some point, but is this really happening to me now? I have to come to grips with reality. pretend like im really a part of this world. pretend that i care about what happens here. pretend i care about anything at all, anything to keep my sanity from slipping. even if it means believing in something that doesnt exist.

// Tuesday, October 31, 2006 // 05:54 p.m.
You're intelligent and thoughtful, and you see the world through big, sensitive eyes. Sometimes you feel uncoordinated, like your body doesn't fit together quite right. It's almost as if someone collected random body parts and sewed them together to make you. That would explain all your emotional scars! It's hard for you to bond with other people, but you're still hopeful that you'll meet a compatible creature and fall in love. It sucks when someone else (your parents/your boss/the mad scientist who created you) is in control of everything, and you're stuck dealing with the consequences. As monsters go, you're a misunderstood sweetheart... right up until someone makes you mad.

quiz again! // Tuesday, August 1, 2006 // 11:32 p.m.

more myspace songs // Sunday, June 25, 2006 // 04:13 p.m.
evren- throw ya belly; athlete- half light; baumer- take whats mine

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myspace songs & things i love. // Thursday, May 4, 2006 // 02:39 p.m.
melee- the war (piano version); discover america- the halves that make us whole; the hush sound- crawling towards the sun; action action- the game; hot hot heat- you owe me an IOU & goodnight goodnight; kt tunstall- black horse and the cherry tree & suddenly i see; daniel powter- bad day; stars- your ex-lover is dead & the entire "set yourself on fire" album.

hey! // Thursday, April 6, 2006 // 11:52 p.m.
i would like to take this opportunity to list my top 5 songs that bring back a feeling of nostalgia. ahem! they are (in no particular order) as follows: 1. "Time Of Your Life (Good Riddance)" -Green Day 2. "Semi-Charmed Life" -Third Eye Blind 3. "Quit Playing Games With My Heart" -Backstreet Boys 4. "All My Life" -KC & JoJo 5. "Sunny Came Home" -Shawn Colvin I could go on... 6. "The Impression That I Get" -Mighty Mighty Bosstones 7. "It's Hard To Say" -Sister Hazel 8. "Barely Breathing" -Duncan Sheik 9. "Freshmen" -The Verve Pipe 10. Basically anything early to mid- 90s.

quiz again! // Monday, February 27, 2006 // 08:58 p.m.

do it. // Saturday, February 18, 2006 // 04:38 p.m.
http://kevan.org/johari?name=taquitapikita

distracted! // Sunday, February 5, 2006 // 12:23 a.m.

so there i was... // Wednesday, January 25, 2006 // 12:59 p.m.
making my daily visit to [purevolume]... i was at my newly discovered favorite band's page (the hush sound) when i realized they sound a lot like straylight run. so i go to straylight run's page, listened to existentialism on prom night, and remembered just how so darn good they are! its the piano and the combination of girl/guy vocals thats the major similarity. im planning to get the hush sound's cd, but im not sure if i completely like all of their songs. they're more poppy than straylight. they have a sampler on their site that i have been frequently listening to, but theres some songs that sound kinda iffy to me... i really like the new demo they put up, but that song's not on the cd. that wouldve been the determining factor for me. if [wine red] was on the cd, id get it for sure. i dont know... ill probably end up getting it anyway. watch. like i said before, some people like buying purses or shoes, i like buying cds. theres something oddly satisfying about discovering youve made a good purchase.

loooooooooong weekend! // Sunday, January 22, 2006 // 10:28 p.m.

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

// Monday, January 9, 2006 // 11:28 p.m.
He'll challenge your mind, he'll cherish your independence as much as you do, and he'll make you unbelievable mix CDs. Oh, and we bet he's a great kisser. SCORE!

rawr! // Tuesday, December 6, 2005 // 12:36 a.m.

tada! // Monday, December 5, 2005 // 11:45 p.m.
here are some cds i want just in case you wanted to buy them for me: melee, just surrender, paramore. in that particular order. thatnk you and have a nice day.

bored and waiting for vacation! // Monday, December 5, 2005 // 10:33 p.m.

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

tired of painting. // Saturday, December 3, 2005 // 10:46 p.m.
melee rocks!

lala // Thursday, December 1, 2005 // 11:21 p.m.
vanilla wafers with peanut butter is so good! i wish i had some b-nays... mmm tasty!

oh, and another thing... // Thursday, November 17, 2005 // 09:41 p.m.
i forgot to mention how im being very clumsy lately. i poked myself in the arm with the end of one of my guitar strings. so now i have a little red dot next to this other little thing on the inside of my forearm. it kinda looks like a vampire bit me. come to think of it, i think maybe that other thing could have been the result of a previous guitar string stabbing. theyre very similar in size and shape. wow... what are the odds?? then earlier today i stabbed myself with an x-acto knife as i was reaching for my keys in my backpack because i didnt realize the cover for it had fallen off. so now i have a little red dot next to the knuckle on my index finger. and then just a couple minutes ago, i backed into my opened closet door and bumped my head. it scared the crap outta me cuz i didnt realize it was there. though one might think i need to seek a counselor for self-inflicted pain, i assure you it isnt necessary. im just really clumsy.

im a poet. // Thursday, November 17, 2005 // 09:35 p.m.
i write during the breaks we have in my 4-hour lecture. i really dont think about what im writing, i just start to write. sometimes good stuff comes out, sometimes crap does. i like putting poetry to guitar chords. does that make it a song? i mean, it doesnt have all the nitty-gritty components of a song, such as the pre-chorus, chorus, bridge, etc. ... lyrical poetry? is that something? man, i shouldve took notes in my high school english class... anyway, i like "singing" (and im using that term extremely loosely) my poetry while playing guitar. it makes me feel good. and thats all i have to say about that.

im Question Mark and im wondering... // Thursday, November 17, 2005 // 12:01 a.m.
is it wrong to like fort minor?

? // Monday, November 14, 2005 // 11:47 p.m.
i found myself wondering... whatever happened to the prolific amount of made-for-tv movies that they used to show nightly on major network channels back in the day? i have many a memory watching them with my mother. no wonder im so paranoid about going out after nightfall. im scared of getting raped like candance cameron (bka dj tanner) did on one of those movies. oh wait no, she was in an abusive relationship. eh, my chances at guessing were 50-50. every one of those movies were either about getting raped or abused. but oh how i miss them so... strictily for the nostalgic feeling, of course. i think they show them sometimes on lifetime.

NEW FAVORITE SHOW! // Saturday, November 12, 2005 // 12:27 a.m.

has college made me more normal?? // Tuesday, November 8, 2005 // 11:27 p.m.
back in march i was 55%!

You Are 65% Normal (Really Normal)

Otherwise known as the normal amount of normal You're like most people most of the time But you've got those quirks that make you endearing You're unique, yes... but not frighteningly so!

im in love... // Tuesday, November 8, 2005 // 11:11 p.m.
with music. im sucha a sucker for acoustic stuff... talk about making me weak at the knees! i like to think that i can write stuff too, but in actuality, i cant. i like being poetic, but most of the lyrics i write come out sappy and cliched, so overdramatic. the best songs are the ones you dont plan. the ones that just come to you. the words that arrive after finding a cool strumming pattern, getting tired and putting the guitar down. when you can actually let yourself think without the cacophony of unmelodic chords. yeah, those are the best. i wish i had some concept about technical songwriting, which chords sound good together and how to get the notes i want. maybe then i could produce something worth merit. i play others' songs to see what works, but then i generally just steal their chord progressions and superimpose my generic lyrics on top. its so much fun though. because when you actually find something you really like, you feel like youve accomplished something. ...and for once you want to be noticed.

bottoms up! // Thursday, November 3, 2005 // 02:11 p.m.
it bothers me that people drink for fun these days. not people in general, its mostly people my age that bother me. sure, its one of the great liberties of being in college, away from home, away from authority figures that would otherwise tell you not to do it, but something about it all just rubs me the wrong way. im sure some drinking was definitely going down while we were in high school, but i dont think it was as rampant. perhaps its because i choose not to involve myself in such activities that makes me so against others doing it. i think i was just more likely to hang out with some people when alcohol wasnt involved, when there were other things that were "fun." i dont like the whole "party" scene. ... or maybe i should try living a little. ...but just so i can be accepted by others?? something about that doesnt sound right to me. anyway, i dont really know where im going with this. i should REALLY be studying, so thats what ill go do. (in other news, i have some pretty gnarly callouses!)

i know what i want for christmas!! // Monday, October 24, 2005 // 04:22 p.m.
http://www.tri-conderoga.com/

:) // Friday, October 21, 2005 // 03:19 p.m.
i wrote a new song. it makes me happy. :) i really love it when a new song comes to me. it helps me feel accomplished, not to mention cool. heheh. ok, so maybe its not the greatest thing, i mean i dont know how to write a song with more then four chords. maybe someone will teach me? yeah, but for now im satisfied. ive been pretty obsessive about guitar playing lately. any free time i have, im either on aim or playing guitar, so when you dont see me, you know what im doing. its a great thing, only ive been neglecting my man....dolin. i wish i were sweet at mandolin. id probably like playing it more. maybe i should keep working on it. that is the only way to get sweet at it, right? but ive reached a hard part in the book. im sick of playing little easy folk songs. i want to play like the guy from nickel creek! sometimes i wonder if my roommates are home. i try to jam out only when theyre not here, but then ill be jamming so loud and i wont hear when they come in and then theyre in their rooms hoping that id shut up, but i wouldnt know because i never heard them come... get what im saying? and then there are times when i think theyre not here, but then they really are and then ill be jamming and stuff, and then i hear one of their doors open. its a lil embarrassing espcially since im no singer and im singing all loudly and junk. yeah... anyway, im done with this for now.

this is it // Wednesday, September 28, 2005 // 07:46 p.m.
i feel like theres something missing from inside of me. an empty void maybe? something missing... maybe this sounds cliche, but ive just been feeling so unfulfilled lately. ha, it seems like i only ever update this when im all sad and stuff. ...if thats the case, im glad i dont update often. ive been doing my thing here... but i have trouble falling asleep at night...but maybe thats because my bed is not nearly as large or comfortable as it used to be. my mind cant stop thinking about certain things and its almost become unbearable. but then i pray. and God puts my mind at ease. and i fall asleep. i wake up, and then everything is ok. ...until its time for bed again. time flies and im glad it does. ...but then i think about aging. mostly for my parents. i cant imagine how life will be like without them. id rather not. theyll be here for as long as i need their physical comforts. id like to think that im growing up and becoming more independent, becoming an adult and whatnot, but a part of me clings to my youth. ...as im sure it does for everyone. but i have to let go sometime. i wonder what life will be like after this. i know theres something more than what we have on earth. when i think about it, the scenery from all dogs go to heaven comes to mind. its not that im secretly a dog and thats where i think ill go... it just seemed like a nice place to be when i was a kid. that imagery of heaven really had an impact on me and it stays with me until now. today is my moms birthday. its her first one without me there. i wish i could be home. but time flies and im glad it does.

NEW! // Friday, July 22, 2005 // 11:40 p.m.
i made a new shirt today. its ugly.

la la la... // Sunday, June 5, 2005 // 03:32 p.m.
summer gets me bored really easily. i went to [sweet tomatoes] yesternight for the first time. i liked it better then i thought it would. i never knew so many salads existed. i also never knew salad could be so filling... we were then gonna go watch [monster in law], but it was sold out when we got there along with every other movie that was around the same time, so instead we went to [world market] and [target]. i bought shorts and a swimsuit costing a grand total of: more than i should have paid. the shorts were only $10 but the swim wear was expensive. vanessa (my other secret sister) is mailing me one she got from [ross] for $5. hopefully itll look good and then i can just return the one from [target]. man yesterday i was so bored... i played all these different games too: super smash bros., time splitters, battleship, checkers, zigity... but nothing seemed to hit the spot. i started reading [the da vinci code]. the beginning is kinda boring though... kinda like this entry. anyway, im looking for a fun time. hit me up if you think you can deliver.

gdhndg // Saturday, May 28, 2005 // 01:52 p.m.
im depressed...

been busy: summer 2005 // Wednesday, May 25, 2005 // 01:45 a.m.
i wrote a new song and recorded some old ones. they all sound the same. lol i ride my bike almost every morning or go to the gym. im trying to read some books. only one so far though. im on the second... i planned on getting a job, but i dunno if ill follow through on that one. i need to sign up for uf preview.

// Wednesday, May 25, 2005 // 01:41 a.m.

You're "There's No "I" in
Team", you stick with your friends, go
around breakin' people's hearts, and make sure
you get what you deserve.

Which taking back sunday song are you?
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bored. // Wednesday, May 4, 2005 // 12:56 p.m.

Sinigang: A soup flavored with tamarind and
includes meat or fish with various veggies

Which Filipino Food Are You?
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head hurts... // Thursday, April 28, 2005 // 01:23 p.m.
i bought the straylight run album today. i think its a pretty good investment. save for that one track that sounds like some kinda dance remix.... yep. senior finals are over and its on to bigger things... AP & IB EXAMS!!! man, i really feel sick. literally.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOI!!! :D // Thursday, April 7, 2005 // 10:57 p.m.
happy 18th birthday, tricksta. i had mucho fun today and i hope you did too! luvyalots! peace out, whoadie.

so this is how it is. // Wednesday, April 6, 2005 // 07:53 p.m.
i never realized how much my life sucked. blah... its just been one of those days. i would like to crawl up in a ball and just sleep and forget about everything school... i really dont like calc. thats just how i am. i dont like things i dont understand. its not that i enjoy being this way. if i had my choice, i wouldnt be this way. i suck at driving. i shouldnt be allowed on the road. im a safety hazard. when i got into an accident before, i didnt know there was a median. this time, i almost got into an accident because i thought there was one.// we won our past 3 games. 4 counting the one i wasnt at last week. today we completely tore apr apart. 53-13. im happy about that. he got me playing offense the other day even though i usually play defense. i was alright. i filled the spot. the game before that i made an interception, but my flag got pulled shortly thereafter. it was a sweet catch. the ball was slippery so i kept bouncing it in my hands as i ran; i didnt have a good grip on it.// im happy that tomorrow is joi's bday. then friday i have my very first field trip of the year. those are things to look forward to. school tomorrow, however, is going to be a beast. did i mention i really dont like calc? i shouldve taken math studies. im a loser...// its just been one of those days.

blah // Wednesday, March 30, 2005 // 09:17 p.m.

Theme songs of your life by eponine
your name?
love song:	brown eyed girl - van morrison
depressing song:	on my own - les miserables
party song:	crazy love - boomkat
what-the-hell-ever song:	california - phantom planet
your life	let's just get naked - joan osborne
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Theme songs of your life by eponine
your name?
love song:	ice cream - sarah mclachlan
depressing song:	goobye to you - michelle branch
party song:	i wanna be bad - willa ford
what-the-hell-ever song:	paint it black - the rolling stones
your life	unwell - matchbox 20
Quiz created with MemeGen!

which do you think is more me?

is this accurate? // Monday, March 28, 2005 // 05:28 p.m.

You scored as Hedonism. Your life is guided by the principles of Hedonism: You believe that pleasure is a great, or the greatest, good; and you try to enjoy life’s pleasures as much as you can. “Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die!” More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page... Hedonism 80% Divine Command 75% Justice (Fairness) 65% Existentialism 65% Utilitarianism 60% Apathy 55% Kantianism 50% Strong Egoism 45% Nihilism 5% What philosophy do you follow? (v1.02) created with QuizFarm.com

Every joint in my body aches. // Friday, March 25, 2005 // 11:29 a.m.
So, I went to [wild adventures] yesterday with my bro. We left at around 8 am after dropping ashlie off at her bus stop. It was my first time driving out of state [whoop!]. I didn’t get lost or anything, but at one point my right butt cheek started to cramp up from driving. Yknow, cuz I drive with my butt and all… on the way it was all cloudy and gloomy, but it cleared up nicely and was sunny for most of the day. When we got there, hardly anyone was there. We rode [bug out] as our first ride. That junk was so funny. Every turn made you smash into the person sitting next to you. Needless to say, I left with some bruises. I don’t really remember everything we rode… hm. The bumper cars were crazy, too. I was just driving around, minding my own business when some lady comes up behind me and yells, “WHIPLASH!” and smacks straight into the back of my car. And now I really have whiplash. My neck hurts like a mofo. I thought it was weird how they had more rides than operators, so the operators have to rotate and control 2 rides… I guess they save money that way. Probably even stranger was how every ride was operated by an asian. Its like the boat took them straight to wild adventures. Anyway, back to my story… We came across a human maze and my bro and I raced to see who could finish first. How bout he forreal got lost in there. I was waiting for him at the finish for at least 3 minutes. lol. At that point I decided I would watch him scramble around as I looked down from the observation deck. Then, like a good sister, I helped him out by giving him directions… actually, I had to go to the bathroom and couldn’t wait on him any longer. We fed some giraffes, too. That junk was so nasty. We had to pay $2 so we could feed them 4 pieces of carrots. Not whole carrots, pieces of them. They were all slobbering and stuff and their tongues were all long… we also watched the shows they had there. The funny part came when some guy with a mullet came out on ice skates. Anyway, since joi is the only one that will read this and I told her about my trip already, I think im done. I actually started this entry yesterday morning, so the “yesterday” at the beginning of the story is different from the “yesterday” im typing now. Confusing? How bout I just stop. My shoulders burn… Welll, today, the 25th of march, I went to the gym again. When we got home, I wanted to take a shower firs, but my bro said that he was going to. I told him that he’s been taking a shower first this whole week every time we get back from the gym, so I said that today was my turn. So I go to get my clean clothes and two seconds later I hear the shower running. I told him he was greedy and selfish. He made muffins for breakfast, but im refusing to eat them in protest. im so freakin hungry…

whoa... im really dizzy. // Tuesday, March 22, 2005 // 10:31 p.m.
im for real really dizzy... i should go to bed. i was really productive today. i cleaned my room a bit AND the bathroom. i love waking up early because then i can actually get stuff done. i went to the gym this morning because it was too nasty outside to go bike riding. did some elliptical, indoor bike riding, and lifting weights. then i went to the base to go get some tix for wild adventures. me and my bro are gonna go on a road trip!! i just hope it isnt all stormy tomorrow like it was today. otherwise, our parade will get all wet. hopefully it will be fun. the park was picked for its proximity and cheapness, but hopefully it can still deliver a good time. yeah... hopefully. the thunder outside, though, isnt a very positive sign. neither is the lightning. oh boy.

quizzes! taken from joi's page... // Tuesday, March 22, 2005 // 12:49 p.m.

You Are 55% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

sphincter // Tuesday, March 22, 2005 // 12:00 p.m.
NOTE: the following entry was typed last night,but due to my lame-o pc, was not able to be posted until today. thus, all references to "today" are actually yesterday. you may proceed... the st. johns town center is saweet! as if you didnt already know... i went last saturday and entered in some of those raffle gift certificate giveaway things. i didnt win any. but its not like they were giving away anything for the good stores anyway... except for the $500 DSW. yep. ate lunch at [p. f. chang's] and afterward picked up some cheesecake at [the cheesecake factory] and had it "to go." then we walked over to the main stage to go watch [jesse] at which point i decided it would be a grand time to eat my brownie sundae cheesecake. mmmm. so delectable. anyway, that was my twon center experience in a nutshell. today i chilled with yajaira and rudy for the whole day (with some guest appearances). first and foremost i would like to thank yajaira cuz she so koo, but also because she was so kind as to lug me around in the shotgun of her speedy tercel. thanks, buddy. man, im just SO tired... ok, so my day started with a bike ride to the oakleaf atheletic center. its not that long of a ride... well, as long as you have my powerful leg muscles. biking home was worse though only because the wind was working against me and my tire ran out of air. but i still managed to make it back. i mean, im here , arent i? then i proceeded to clean my room and i was just getting into the swing of it when yajaira called asking if i wanted to hang out. and, you know... how can you pass up an opportunity like that?? so i drove over to her house and then we met up with rudy at the atm cuz he was having some secret agenda and being all sketchy. followed rudy to go pick up danielle, and headed over to regency. that mall looks so ghetto from the outside and the inside reminds me of the mall in p-cola. needless to say, the dollar tree made it tight. i bought me some batteries. walked around a bit, ate at the food court, and headed over to [chuck e cheese] where i "met" gabe. what actually went down, though, was rudy introducing me to the air he was standing in before he started to walk away. we took pictures like pimps then left to go play halo 2 at danielle's. so nice of her to invite us over.... im pretty sweet at that game. except in the beginning when i couldnt even walk properly and at the end when rudy beat me. that was just shameful... but im tellin you, in the middle, i mirked me some tricks. then danielle fed us some samoa ice cream. such a good flavor.... and we stood out on her little dock thing, then went back in to play more halo. but come 530, danielle had to go to her voice lessons and rudy had to go check in with his mom, so we headed back home. when i got home, i ate the whole kitchen: dinner, half a chocolate chip cookie, some semi-sweet chocolate chips, and a spoonful of cookies n cream ice cream (its a small kitchen). then yajaira came and picked me up to go to the movies and this time JOI came along too! how lucky we were to have her grace us with her presence! (though she was probably just trying to pass her virus onto one of us.) we met up with rudy and stephanie and had a grand ol time watching [the ring two.] it wasnt so scary. haha, then there was a little renactment in the restroom after the show. but after that, stephanie gave us a ride to the cars in her candy-scented mini van while blasting rk and thus we parted. good times, great oldies, cool 96.1.

dreams come true // Monday, March 14, 2005 // 07:06 p.m.
...some of them at least. joi's at least. as for mine... well... that's a whole different animal. im so sad. for reasons unbeknownst to me. ok, thats a lie. i know exactly why im sad, but dont feel quite comfortable revealing such things in this forum. anyway... ive been meaning to write in here just to get things off my chest. this pita has been so idle that i thought no one came here anymore. and yet, my loyal fans have proved me wrong. i thought id be able to freely say whatever it is i wanted without having to worry about who reads it. then why write in here, you ask? because part of me wants people to know what i go through. i miss things. i miss people. and the worst part about it is im too chicken to do anything about it. but then again, i could just say that thats not my place and be done with it. i could just wait for something to happen without having to take the initiative. but then i run the risk of having nothing happen at all. the thing i worry about is sounding juvenile. i dont know how to accurately express myself without making it sound like im back in middle school, where anything means everything. truth is, i have such strong feelings and when i attempt to verbalize them, it comes out immature and superfluous, too flowery for anyone to take seriously. and then theres the option of sounding casual. this, however, doesnt really get the point across, yet is less risky. but thats where i find the problem. nothing is at stake. and if i expect anything to happen, then some bets have to be placed. i think my problem is in knowing how much to reveal at a time. im overanalyzing.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE ONE AND ONLY CHRIS W.!!!! // Saturday, September 11, 2004 // 11:20 p.m.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS!! ive known you for so many years and i look forward to more great times in the future. thanks for always being there when i need you :). 18!!! so nice and clean! go eat that jellybean!! man, i had the greatest time today. it was all fun and games. i love bank of america picnics. they're so great. everything free at adventure landing=hours upon hours of entertainment! yep, went there with chris aka birthday boy, yajaira, joi, rachel, lacky, and my cousin marc. we had fun and got tired. marc kept passing out in the car and i came so close to passing out too many times. kinda like now... after that, we left yajaira and rachel while they were swimming to go visit gail so that chris could pick up his present. we ate her food from the wedding shower that was going on and we played hide-and-go-seek and stuff. it was fun. then when i got home i took a much needed shower :). then me and my mom went to carraba's to get gift certificates for the emcee of my party and the woman that helped with all the decorations and stuff. but we both hadn't had dinner yet, so we decided we would eat there, too. my treat :). i ordered a sasusage & peppers pizza. it was just OK. and we took some food home for dad too. man, our waiter was hott. i shoulda left my number. haha... he kept looking at me too. i thought it was just me who noticed. i thought maybe i even made that up cuz i was always looking at him, but then as we were leaving, my mom pointed it out. he was cute. haha, ANYWAYS, i had a very eventful day. i didnt get much hw done, but i had a good day. (p.s. we're cool, they're lame! [refer to joi's xanga])

thank you // Thursday, September 9, 2004 // 03:12 a.m.
ahh... i feel relieved. all the stressing ive been doing over my debut is over and i can finally relax! this weekend (or week rather) has been the greatest... and i thought i wouldnt have any time to do my hw... pah! i still havent done all of it, but at least i had the opportunity to do some. i had the best time on saturday and all the family/visitors from out of town made everything so much fun at home for the past couple days. but the last of em left yesterday, so its back to life, back to reality. my party turned out great and im happy it did. thanks all you guys for waltzing your little hearts out!! you guys looked so good! too bad i kept messing up. but seriously, man, i had the best time. good thing i put those eggs outside. my neighbor told me and my mom that if you put eggs on your alter or outside your door as an offering to St. Clair, then the rain will go away and so we did that. and it worked. i <3 St. Clair. hope and prayer go a long way. i cant wait til the video from my debut comes. i wonder what i looked like when i was doing my birthday/happy dance. everyone said they liked it. people even asked me if i planned that. lol. i just looked at my sister and she started making dancing motions, so i did that. who knew it was going to be such a big hit? oh and my song was whacked. lol. i was SO nervous and you could hear it in my voice. oh well, at least i did it. i was contemplating on not doing it afterall cuz i was too embarrassed cuz that other girl was really good. good thing i didnt chicken out. i wouldve regretted it later. oh and i forgot to thank some people in my speech, so i guess ill just do it now. better late than never? [i would like to thank grandma fe cervantes for making my beautiful gown, auntie alice for my petti coat, and auntie cora for doing my hair and make-up. they are the real reason i looked so good on saturday]. anyway, im super tired and i need to wake up early tomorrow to finish off my hw. will it never end?

the who? // Friday, August 27, 2004 // 06:02 p.m.
apparently i know the grospe's. oh and btw, i need a pensive like monkeys need bananas.

2 looong days // Thursday, August 5, 2004 // 09:38 p.m.
i was going to write about the long and eventful days ive been having, but its weird how one email can make you feel like everything you did just doesnt matter. im out of words.

i'm double the lovin'! // Tuesday, August 3, 2004 // 01:26 p.m.

A	Arty
L	Loving
L	Loving
I	Innocent
E	Exquisite

star-studded // Tuesday, August 3, 2004 // 10:32 a.m.
I almost forgot to mention the cameos by [Kirsten Dunst] and [Tim "The Toolman" Taylor] in [The Village]!! what a surprise that turned out to be!! ;)

weekend overview // Monday, August 2, 2004 // 11:03 a.m.
SATURDAY: Because there was no practice, I became an ironing slave. Then Yajaira and Lacky decided to stop by. I showed them my songs, they played etch-a-sketch (or rather, Yajaira did), ate a few oreos and taquitos, and left because they were bored. Either that or I didn't have enough snacks to satisfy them. I couldn't go anywhere because my mom doesn't want to leave my brother alone in the house when he comes home from Gainesville. So then he and I started playing [Othello]. I was so dominating him, btw. But then the phone rang and it was my aunt telling us to come over because Ashlie didn't want to stay with Marc. So we went over there and we were playing with Ashlie while Marc was entertaining his other guest. But then my bro and I were both tired and we didn't feel like playing anymore. So my bro went to the bathroom and never came back. This eventually turned into a game of [hide 'n seek]. I had the most awesomest (yes, two superlatives are in need) hiding place! No one could find me without turning the lights on. Oh yeah, we were playing in the dark, btw. Marc's house is so cool to play [hide 'n seek] cuz it's so big. But then we got bored of that and so we decided to play [Nintendo]. Then when their parents came back home from the party, my bro and I left.

SUNDAY: My mom woke me up at 8 even though the mass at 9:30 was cancelled. After realizing her mistake, I went back to sleep and woke up 2 hours later to go to church at 10:45. After church we went to the [Commissary], got home, unloaded all the stuff, ate some [Mini Airheads], and started watching TV with the sibs. Then I went with my mom to [Partyland], to see if they had better ribbon lettering than [Party City], and to [Walgreens], to enlarge a photo for my board signing thing. [Partyland] was closed so we just went to [Walgreens]. The photo guy is creepy. Reminds me of Robin Williams in [1-hr Photo]. Anyway, so I did that, came home, ate lasagna, then went to see [The Village] with Yajaira, Lacky, and Justin. It wasn't as scary as I thought it was gonna be, which is a good thing, I guess, less nightmares.

don't believe me? ask the dishes! // Saturday, July 31, 2004 // 12:08 a.m.
hey check me out at purevolume!! (music to be up as soon as i figure out how to set it to .mp3 instead of .wav)

it's official. // Wednesday, July 28, 2004 // 07:10 p.m.
ok, guys. it's official. i am currently a rockstar. yep... been rockin out the past 2 days and i must say, i'm quite the natural. or as the french say it, "le naturale." so there you have it. my life in a nutshell. yep... it's hard being me, but i find ways to deal.

i'm not grounded... am i? // Monday, July 26, 2004 // 03:13 a.m.
no, folks, not me. i'm glad my mom is nice to me. :) i mean, just because i stayed at yajaira's house til 12:30am without calling her or letting her know i was OK doesn't mean someone can just up and ground me. ...right? when i got home my sister and my mom were waiting for me in the kitchen. honestly, i was scared. but nothing too bad happened. my sister was all acting like she was my mother, all telling me i'm grounded for 2 weeks and i have a 10:30 curfew on friday and saturday and an 8:00 curfew for all the other days. psh... wuteva. lol. actually, im kinda glad she said 10:30 cuz my mom wanted to make it 10. but that's basically all my punishment. i'm kinda glad she gave me a curfew though. i never know what time to come home. she just tells me don't stay out too late. like i'm supposed to know what "too late" is... (btw, 12:30 is "too late"). but yeah... i would've been home sooner, but when i asked joi at 11:00 if it was late, she said "no." dang, joi... it's all your fault. lol, i'm jk. i'm glad you were there too otherwise, she woulda been more upset than she was. all that quality time you guys spent together saturday appeared to have benefitted me. lol. my mom wasn't even really mad. more like disappointed. like i should've at least called. we shouldn't have been talking to lacky for so long. she said she was calling every minute and it was always busy. and she's not even exaggerating. i knew that was gonna happen. no, actually, i should've remembered the cell phone that my brother left. then she coulda called me on that. oh well, enough of the shoulda's, coulda's, if's, and maybe's, i'm going to bed!

another day in the life of // Friday, July 23, 2004 // 12:32 a.m.
went to the new super target on roosevelt today. it was mostly like the one on wells except reversed... and neater... and they knew how to set up the aisles. why make people walk all the way to the back?? they had the board games in front right where they belong! what can i say? i'm a sucker for fun... other than that i've been mostly online... chatting with my beloveds (that means you). oh and painting a rooster for my brother. not a painting painting, but it's like one of those "finish it yourself" things. like a figurine decoration thing. honestly, i think the company just didn't want to dish out the extra dough for the paints. anyway, that's all for tonight.

the truth is... // Wednesday, July 21, 2004 // 12:27 a.m.
i'm paranoid of bug bites. i'm paranoid of bugs entering the house. i'm paranoid that someone is watching me. i'm paranoid that i will get murdered in the middle of the night. i'm paranoid that i'm sending the wrong messages. i'm paranoid that people don't like me. i'm paranoid of... well... i guess that's it. it's my overactive imagination that's at the root of all my paranoia and it makes me scared of living life to its fullest.

off to bed i go // Thursday, July 15, 2004 // 02:53 a.m.
i did an art project today. im glad i got that out of the way. i should probably go play. maybe i can find some clay. i'll go get a drink from the tray. i hope my rug doesn't start to fray. do you like the color grey? keep your promises or you'll pay. how long do you want to stay? eating spaghetti is gay. and that's all i have to say. man... that was lame. i can't believe i just played that game!

yikes! // Tuesday, July 13, 2004 // 01:54 a.m.
i just filled out the form for senior pics. they sent me two notices saying "order your pictures today!" and "don't miss your chance to be in the yearbook!"... i was like, geez, what's their problem? so i finally decided to do it. turns out the little paper around the previews said send previews and payment by "JUN 17." whoops... i seem to have overlooked that part. anyway, hopefully it isn't too late. cuz whenever i looked through the yearbook from this past year and i saw someone without a photo, i would think he/she were lazy or something. i watched [kill bill]. that's a very bloody movie. i liked the animation though. the shading was impressive. it was cross-hatched, but it still looked realistic. oh and i thought that O-ren's (wasn't that her name?} 17-year-old body guard was way cool. i want to be her friend. i mean, i certainly don't want to be her enemy, that's fosho. well, i should probably go to bed. joi said i shouldn't be on this late and she's right. even though it's like i just woke up. i mean i haven't even been awake for 12 hours yet. i woke up at 2:40 this afternoon and was in disbelief when i looked at the clock. i wish i were an early riser.

bad habit // Sunday, July 11, 2004 // 09:26 p.m.
I really need to stop talking about escuela.

what the funk?! // Sunday, July 11, 2004 // 09:13 p.m.
man, you guyz made my room smell oh so funky! next time make sure you apply a thick layer of deodorant, please--for your sake and mine. but man did we "get crunk"... the room was OK by the time i went to bed, i made sure of that. i watched [cadet kelly] after everyone left (to give my room more time to air-out) and my mom came and watched it with me. i think she liked it more than i did. but then again, i had already seen it. anywoozies.. thanks for coming to waltz again. i appreciate it. here, as a symbol of my appreciation i offer you this trophy: . ...just use your imagination. oh and thanks to gilbert for vacuuming my rug! ;) after all the white people (not to be taken offensively) left, bigwoo kept hinting at singing kareoke, so we did that for a while and i made more mini corn dogs that yajaira and lacky said would be enough, but clearly wasn't. then joi came and we had a party. i mean, let's be realistic here, a party just isn't a party without the funk mistress herself! nah, i shouldn't be saying that... joi was just dehydrated, isn't that right? which is why i came right away with a glass of water. well, today my cousins came back from va and woke me from my nap. it was so peaceful when they weren't here... but it's ok. i kinda missed them. ...i guess. i feel the pressure of school starting to kick in. i tried reading [heart of darkness], but it was too boring for me. im thinking im not gonna read it at all. its only one test grade.... and [lenin's revolution] is only gonna be worse... sigh... someone kick me in the butt, please.

blahhhhhhh // Friday, July 9, 2004 // 01:02 a.m.
i feel like i do the same things everyday. maybe it's because i have. sleep, eat, play, draw, listen to cds, write numbers in my art journal... BORE! lately i've been doing stuff for art so that modifies my schedule a little, but i feel like i could/should be doing more... wasting away has always been one of my pastimes. [cold mountain] was a good movie, but not as good as i was expecting. maybe i just have high expectations. not just for movies, but for life in general. i find myself feeling disappointed and unfulfilled more and more frequently. kind of like how some superlatives have lost their meaning because they're used too often and inappropriately. like saying "aw man! that's awseome!" when something really isn't... when it's just "ok." it reminds me of that one essay we had to write in english. yeah, that's the way i see my life. as an overused superlative. school is rapidly approaching. i cringe when i hear the word because i know it's just that much closer. i can't believe i didn't make an effort to be employed. i wish i weren't such a sloth. i got my ib scores online this morning. i did well, but i wasn't really happy when i saw the scores. i mean, i wasn't upset either. i was just... indifferent. maybe i lack feeling--again, the overused superlative. all this typing makes me depressed. it's no wonder i stopped updating before.

there you go // Wednesday, July 7, 2004 // 05:07 p.m.
ok so i wrote that previous entry yesterday but didn't get a chance to put it up til now. and, btw, the movie [God is great and I'm not] was a bore. it lacked an ending! i dislike movies that do that. it kinda reminds me of [elephant]. anyway, hopefully [dirty pretty things] is better, which is the one my sister picked out (amelie is in that one, too) along with [cold mountain]. if all goes right, two good movies lie ahead.

SURPRISE! // Wednesday, July 7, 2004 // 05:06 p.m.
what's this?! something new?! an... an... UPDATE?!?!? so it is, so it is... let us see... well, being that i can't remember passed last weekend, i think i'll start there. last saturday i held the first official practice thing for my debutante. though it it was few in attendance, we still managed to be ever so slightly productive. thanks for all those who came to dance (yajaira, gibot, bigwoo, lacky, sarah, and daniel) i appreciate it immensely. thanks also to those who came to party/were fashionably late (eva, joi) it was cool for you guys to show up. hopefully next saturday more people will be there. oh and there will definitely be less singing and more dancing going on. but really, thanks to everyone who came to my house on saturday. after theat we (eva, lacky, yajaira + fam, joi, bigwoo) went to watch spider-man 2 where everyone but lacky got a good parking spot. it was a good movie, i guess. nothing spectacular. lacky took my seat without even asking. that jerk... but anyway, on sunday i went to church then to one of The Aunties' houses where we (my siblings and i) ate and played little games to help make the time pass so it wouldn't seem rude when we left after having dinner. yknow, because we enjoy spending time with all of our parents' friends. so anyway, we left there and went to bb (aka blockbuster) where we got [cheaper by the dozen] and [melvin goes to dinner]. hehe. i didn't see melvin, but [cheaper by the dozen] was very touching. :) so sunday rolls along and monday arrives. i went to with my sister to take my bro back to gainesville. we ate at chipotle where i had the biggest chicken fajita burrito ever. bigger than [moe's] i'd say... it was real delish, but i couldn't finish it so i took the last 1/4 togo. we dropped my bro off and my sister hit up [ROSS]! they didn't have a very good selection this time, so i didn't get anything. i was thinking about this cool lookin shirt that had handcuffs on it, but then it sadi "fetish" on the back, so i decided against it. i tried on a bunch of dresses just cuz my sister was gonna try on atuff and id have to wait for her anyway. i liked 2 of the 5. there was this red one that looked sMaShin' on me, but it cut too low and believe me, no one wants to see any of that. there was this other brown printed one that would've made a nice school dress and i would've gotten it, but i don't have that much money and i need to save some to buy a birthday present for my sister in august. then my sister and i go to marble slab and i get banana ice cream with a brownie mix-in in a waffle cone. it was real good, but i was still full from the hugemongor burrito i ate a couple hours earlier so you can just imagine how i felt after all that ice cream. after that we deicided it was about time we return to jax. so she drives home as we listen to some cds and make small-talk. blah, blah.. yknow, sister stuff. as soon as we get home i eat my leftover burrito which put me way over the top and made me feel like exploding was a necessary process. trying to prevent explosion at all costs we go to blockbuster and get [matchstick men] and [how to deal]. i haven't seen [matchstick men] yet, but i want to. [how to deal] was OK. i can't believe mandy just exposed herself like that! but it was a good one for "cheesy-movie" night. so that's monday. and here i am on tuesday... typing away... my sister and i went to subway for lunch then we went to blockbuster yet again and got [God is great and i'm not]. it's in french! AND it has amelie in it! i'll probably watch it later tonight. then we went to wal-mart supercenter where my sister was gonna buy [taboo] but all the boxes were dented so instead we both bought cds. i got the [spider-man 2 soundtrack] and my sister got [jason mraz]. then we went to peterbrooke and she bought us some [pretzel pals]. those are tasty! then we went to [toys r us] to see if they had [taboo] and they did, but it was more expensive than at wal-mart so instead she held off on buying it again and instead got [hoopla] by cranium. we finally go home and we play it. it's fun/hard. and now my sister is at the gym and i just got out of the shower. the soundtrack is kinda cool. im listening to it as i type. but anyway. that's enough of typing. i mean, i've written enough to last me at LEAST 2 more months. :)

// Wednesday, June 16, 2004 // 02:50 p.m.

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googlism! // Thursday, June 10, 2004 // 07:28 p.m.
stolen from joi's xanga: stolen from someone's livejournal 1. Go to www.googlism.com. 2. Enter your first name into the search box and Googlism! yourself. 3. Pick the ten BEST responses, and list them. 4. Bold your favorite of the BEST No need to bold them! they're all great! allie is homeless for the day allie is a black tri female who is owned and handled by elizabeth allie is a daughter of our wonderful stallion allie is a very lucky dog allie is descendant of the rom gypsies of transylvania as well as a writer and motivator with a thriving practice in ohio allie is a nervous wreck preparing for her first date since 1963 allie is out to prove that a woman can rise to the top in the wrestling world based on her ring ability alone allie is a very physical player allie is a cutie that is for sure allie is aproximately 23 inches tall allie is a sultry redhead allie is wounderful to her fans allie is a regular on the internet soap opera "scandals" allie is a survivor of animal neglect im sure thats quite enough... sigh, thanks joi, that was fun. on a slightly different note, cicadas have made me paranoid of the common housefly. thank you and good night.

everyone else is doing it // Thursday, May 20, 2004 // 08:32 p.m.

You're an Etch-a-Sketch!! You're the creative,
artsy type who doesn't need to actually utilize
a single muscle group in order to have fun.
Doesn't matter though, you're still cool.

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You're Siddhartha!
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You simply don't know what to believe, but you're willing to try anything once. Western values, Eastern values, hedonism and minimalism, you've spent some time in every camp. But you still don't have any idea what camp you belong in. This makes you an individualist of the highest order, but also really lonely. It's time to chill out under a tree. And realize that at least you believe in ferries.
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You're Afghanistan!
In the words of Bob Dylan, you "haven't known peace and quiet in so long [you] don't remember what it's like!"  Sad but true.  Boss after boss has led you around, using you for their nefarious purposes, and dumping you when the time was right.  You've hurt and been hurt and now you're just sick and tired.  When will people leave you alone and let you do your own thing?  But you don't really even know what you want anymore.
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i knew that // Monday, May 17, 2004 // 01:02 p.m.
the only reason I came to school today was because i will have the summer all to myself. no need to start early.... yeah, thats it. what am i saying?!?

about that... // Sunday, May 16, 2004 // 02:04 p.m.
i just got done reading yajaira's super-sized entry. it kinda made me sleepy... not that it was boring or anything, but yknow that feeling when youre tired and you read then you sleep?? anyways, it was interesting hearing what she's been up to... all my aps/ibs are over (thank goodness!), now all thats left are finals, which shouldnt be that hard. at least thats what im hoping... i wonder how many of those i actually have to take. hm... i saw Troy friday. thats a really good movie. brad pitt looks so good in it too! stick orlando bloom in an action movie and he's bound to have a bow and arrow. thats all i have to say about that... ater the french ib on friday i went to gail's house with sarah and gail (we didnt just go over there without her), which, btw, is very nice. we ordered some pizza and watched zoolander and X2. so that was fun... im upset because my computer isnt functioning properly. im on my sister's. aol and wmplayer refuse to open. THE TWO MOST IMPORTANT THINGS!! well, besides Word... anyways, im done with this entry.

at last // Tuesday, May 4, 2004 // 01:01 p.m.
hey joi, you gonna go to the stanton/paxon game?? its our last one! in fact, everyone should come and cheer for me! I COMMAND YOU! jk... but really, joi, if you can, stay after school and watch me make a fool of myself. in other news, im tired of pointless days at school. my life seems so... stagnant. i cant wait for school to be out. it seemed so weird when i was asked what i was gonna do over the summer, but i guess when you really think about it, its not such an obscure question. i mean, theres only, what? 2 weeks of school left?? psh! summer is practically sitting in my lap waiting for me to undress it! aw yeah! good ol' summer...

ugh... // Monday, May 3, 2004 // 04:21 p.m.
i took 2 APs today. it was fun in a not-so-fun kind of way... i wouldnt mind going through a whole day of APs again though. beats class. if only they didnt count so much. now to get APUSH and IB french out of the way... sigh... game today. PAXON! RAH!! later.

yep... // Wednesday, April 21, 2004 // 12:16 p.m.
sitting in school... fun...

friday // Saturday, April 17, 2004 // 06:09 p.m.
man, reasearch teacher is getting on nerves--not just mine. the way he grades is whack and SO inconsistent. not to mention his unprofessonal, flakiness. no more first year teachers for me. i need someone who knows what they're doing.... yesterday, i was gettin my hair did in class and talking all ghetto, then he says something like, "i need my class to be more culturally respective" or something to that effect. i continue speaking ghetto. then he says something like, "again, culturally respective." then i bust out all like, "i talk like this e'erday!" (because its true) then he's like, "maybe you can go tell that to mr. kelly, a big black (emphasis on "black") authority" (something like that, i dont remember the exact words.) so im just like, "who ever said i was tryin to be black?!?" so all of a sudden its some racial issue, when i was just talking normally when im in my hardcore ghetto mood. see, its his problem that he thinks black and ghetto are synonyms... during the class change, i walked through the halls with my new do. the comments that were given range from "i like that. you're making a statement." to "who the hell did that to her hair?!" in any event, its nice not caring what random people think. on a slightly different note, the multi extravaganza was way cool, but too many hawaiian/ tahiti dances for my taste.

add garlic // Thursday, April 15, 2004 // 09:20 p.m.
hello, all. we played ed white today. let's not get into detail about that though. if anyone wants to take part in the variety show, hit me up--or just tag the board.

defeat // Wednesday, April 14, 2004 // 08:56 p.m.
we lost our flag football game today. the score was like a billion to 2. in other news, my mom wants to have a variety show at my bday party. O, what fun!

easter // Sunday, April 11, 2004 // 04:45 p.m.
happy easter, all (though by now, im sure no one comes here anymore). hope you're having a grand 4-day weekend. i've been MIA for a while, overwhelmed with school. however, i did happen to find some time to pick up writing again. for now at least. once summer rolls around, i think ill feel better and relieved in many ways.